So today, I decided to write
about my college life in UP, Cebu. What my feelings were during my first day and
my first week. But before my first day
officially started in UP Cebu, I actually went to a Summer Bridge Program for
Math offered by UP to help students, who are lacking in the math area, adjust in the subject, Math. Of course, I decided to participate in SBP because
I knew that I don't have enough math-solving skills. Afterall, I do suck at math and it’s compulsory. Later on, I realized that SBP didn’t
really contribute much to my math subject because I was taking up MATH 17. It
was frustrating to learn that, but at least SBP did help me find new friends.
So during my official first day in UP Cebu, I was feeling happy that I wasn’t
alone because I had my group of friends.
At
the same time, I also felt very nervous. Back in highschool years, my first day
went on very sadly. I was a shy-type kind of person, very quiet, and I had a
poker-face that made people think that I was a mean person. All of these were
my highschool friends’ first impression of me and it took me several months to
adjust and open up to everybody. My first day at college reminded me of what I
felt after all those years from highschool and I still wasn’t used to seeing
many people and large crowds. It made me uncomfortable and it freaked me out
internally. I couldn’t stand the pressure I was feeling, but when I'm with my friends, it helped
me feel a little secured. My first day didn’t go so badly.
Sadly, the next day I found out that my SBP friends’ didn’t have that same schedule as me. I was
feeling alone again. I tried opening up to people but I found myself being
quiet around my new classmates. I missed my friends; I missed riding the same
jeep with them. It was sad but after some time, I realized that I needed new
friends, without replacing them. Eventually I did make new friends, they were
very nice people with different personalities and attitude, even though I was intimidated by them. I couldn’t speak or communicate with them
comfortably because I felt a little awkward while talking to them. But I
realized as the days went by, I started to get familiar with them. And I
started getting more comfortable to them than with my SBP friends.
As
of now, I am still adjusting to my life in Cebu. Not to mention the language
barrier, Waray and Bisaya, which I am also adjusting to. I still
can’t memorize the jeep and their routes, and I still can’t adjust to
some of my subjects in my course. Unfortunately, I also failed my first long
exams in all of my subjects, consecutively. Of course during that time I felt
really depressed, but I wasn’t alone. One of my friends namely, Debbie also felt the same as me, we were
both sad but at the same time we managed to laugh our way through it. (Although
most of the time, we were also thinking about shifting to another course or I
was thinking of transferring to another school).
My
college life still continues today. I don’t know if I do manage to pass college
in UP Cebu, or if I can ever cope-up with my course subjects. But one thing I
learned is that: You can’t survive college without friends. College is really
hard when you are all alone and you are away from your family, and that is when you’ll see that you need
friends. Because friends actually help you and guide you despite facing
problems, insecurities, or even relational problems of their own. In my case, I
am very thankful to all of my friends:
Especially Debbie whom I can share my feelings to and speak Waray with, instead of Bisaya.
To my friend, Arvin, for
listening to me, for acting as our tutor in Math, also for managing to cope
with my moody personality, and even
doing my lab exercises (I know I have lots of favours I need to return to him).
To Arniel, who gives advices to me and Debbie. And to all of my friends.
I managed to survive my first two
months of college because of them.
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